This is a process.
I know that. I understand that. This is all about letting go, about learning about myself.
I’ve lived for a long time in not exactly the healthiest manner, but everyone makes mistakes, right? I mean, you’ve made mistakes before, right? Don’t answer. Everyone has. It’s really ok. This is about me, not you. Well, it’s about you, but to a lesser extent. You’re incidental. I’m the main character here. Don’t worry. Everyone has to have supporting roles once in a while.
God damn, this feels really good. No, no. This feels great. Talking about this after so long, after so much deception is like taking your jacket off when you get home on one of those autumn days that is much too warm for a jacket but you’ve worn it all day and you’re sweaty but your hands are full and you can just hold the damn thing right now and you’re suffocating because you didn’t check the weather before leaving the house. Or, you know, like lifting a weight, but that’s boring.
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